Personal message

I have a YouTube channel and it is almost 3 years old and it's struggling to reach 1000subscribers, I have tried so much and now I'm still on 120 subscribers, I tried to promote it but still not growing, I have no job and I'm doing my best to get a job or something but still nothing, I need a gaming PC to improve my content and join communities that can help me grow but they use a gaming PC and I use a laptop it's not even i3, even subscribers will help me a lot, I have no money no plan, I tried many things I guess this platform too...